Hi @Poppy15, it’s great that you’re reaching out for help. It sounds like you’re having a difficult time. Many people are anxious about HIV & STIs. You’re not alone. If you think you can’t go on living do call Life line on 13 11 14.
It’s important to know that you & your child don’t have HIV. I can say this with 100% confidence for 2 reasons:
1. Since we’ve known about HIV no one has ever been infected with through kissing or fingering. Not one person.
2. You tested negative for HIV Ag/Ab after 8 months.
Is it likely to be false negative? The answer is no. The test result is accurate.
Many people feel really anxious about HIV when they search the internet. Googling HIV symptoms can result in over 10 million really common symptoms that are not specific to HIV. The bottom line is that the internet is not an effective way to diagnose symptoms. Visiting a doctor & getting tested is the only way to know for sure.
If you’re still feeling anxious & worried after reading this I’m encouraging you to seek help. Anxiety is really common & may be triggered at any time. Counselling and/or medication for anxiety is effective treatment. The next step is to talk to your doctor about how you’re feeling & ask how it can be managed. Get back to me & let me know how it goes. I’m here if you need any more support.