Hey @unknown, if your introduction to sex was distressing it can make sexual desires feel confusing or uncomfortable. Like the others have said, what you’re feeling (getting turned on by a sex scene in a movie and being curious about masturbation) is a completely normal response, and it’s how many people start to learn about their own bodies and what they like.
Lots of women masturbate, although they tend not to talk about it as openly as guys do, and there’s no right or wrong way to do it. There is some info here, but generally for women masturbation involves stroking or rubbing your clitoris and other parts of your vagina. Some women do use sex toys like dildos and vibrators, which we have info on here, but it’s not mandatory and since toys cost money using your fingers is a good way to start.
Masturbation has gotten a bad rap over the years, some people are taught it’s wrong or dirty – but there is absolutely nothing shameful about doing it. If you’re feeling hesitant because of your past, chatting to a counsellor can really help work through some of those feelings. You can visit your GP and ask for a referral, or if that’s too nerve-wracking, you can call 1800 RESPECT or use their webchat service, and they can help link you up with a counsellor.